Random!

I'm so happy. Just thought that should be put out there. The roomies and I are getting pictures done tomorrow which we have wanted to do since we started living together. Life is good. Christmas break needs to come. I am burnt out on school. I need the month of freedom just to screw around and do what I want. I would like to go home for a while and see my friends, but I doubt I'll get that much time off of work. Meh. Oh well! At least I love my job! =) The people I work with are amazing. So funny!! It's like a big family!! Cooper is getting big which is weird. I like just holding him and being able to play. =) Well, enough random rants from me. Good night!

Boys. What more can I say?? They complicate life, but sure do make it fun. =) I think I am starting to get a crush which sounds so childish, but it's true. He's funny, smart, and can laugh with me which is so refreshing. I could be making a mountain out of a mole hill, but I like the way it feels while it lasts. Turkey day was good for my than just the usual answers. =) Hmmm... I should sleep... Night!!!

My life. Boring, huh?

I'm so borrrrrred!!!!! I am in Springfield because I work until 3 tomorrow then I get to go home. I love work, but it sucks to be the only one here. I am doing laundry so that's a load off. I actually made dinner tonight which it's the first day I've done that in over a week. Being sick and busy makes me not hungry and too tired to do anything. So, since I have time I am going to make a list of things I am thankful for!
1. Family without whom I would not function.
2. Friends from home who make me want to be a better person.
3. Gals for whom I would not still be in Springfield if not for them.
4. The Picture People. How can I love something and get paid for it?
5. The people I work with. They make me smile and feel special.
6. Music. It helps me function even on bad days.
7. The Nanny. It makes me laugh and smile when I don't feel like it.
8. My bed. It's great. ;)
9. My roommates. They deal with me at my absolute worst.
10. My life. I am so blessed.

Well, That's my life. Here's a picture from an amazing place. I miss this.

Sick. =(

I am still sick and about to go crazy with it!! I have not felt great in about 4 days. All I want to do is curl up in my bed, have a movie marathon, and snuggle. Yet none of this is going to happen because I have no time to. School is lame. I am tired of it and I am ready for a trip home. I just want a lazy weekend at home, but I know I am not going to get it until after Christmas.
Work is still going really well, but being sick is a pain. The people I work with are fabulous! I couldn't ask for more amazing people. They are just like a big family!! It kind of makes me miss my DQ fam. haha.
Well, I am way behind on homework and need to stop being a bum. Wish me luck on my homework. The pile is not cute.

Directions.

The direction of my life is unknown. School is fine, but I don't know what I want to do with my life. I just never stick with anything for very long because I never seem to care. I'm not sure why this is, but I have a feeling it's because I never want to apply myself and it's easier to start over than to care. I'm not sure why I think like this.
On a lighter note, I am living how I want. I would love to eventually start a family and grow up, but as of right now I am way to selfish to even think about it. Getting a dog would be too much of a commitment. Even though I don't want that type of a commitment, I would love to have a relationship and start dating again. I just never seem to find the right person or they don't think of me that way. That's fine with me, but it would just be nice to have someone think of me in a different way. Meh. I'll deal. I would love to fall in love. Just sayin.
This is boring just like my life right now. Homework is going to occur now so yeah...

Random Rants of a Crazy Girl.

"There's always gunna be another mountain. I'm always gunna want to make it move." Yes, you may find this to be a lame song, but I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Not the song, but what it really stands for. I am the type of person who likes to control her situation and make sure that I am happy with how it is turning out. The thing is, I can't control everything which actually bothers me more than you could know. I want to keep pushing and pulling and making everything the way I think it should be. Life, as we all know, is not like this at all. For instance, I told myself that I was done with Springfield after this semester, but somehow I have changed my outlook, though just a little. I'm not saying I want to live here forever, but I am going to finish school here. Most days though I can't wait to get back to the STL. I think it's my place. Maybe, maybe not but as of right now that's where I want to be. I change my mind daily as you can see, but I still hate losing control. Geez, another rant. Who would have thought?

Living My Life the Way I Love It.

So, it's Tuesday night and I am sitting in my room waiting for my hair to finish. I am dying it yet again. Part of me is tired of doing it, but I do like a change now and again. Random thought I know. So in other news, I am in love with my job. I get to shoot photos all day, hang out with amazing people, and be creative. What could be better?? It's pretty great getting to do what you love and getting paid for it. I love the family environment too even though it makes me miss my family a little bit more. I am ready to go home. It's been almost 7 weeks and I'm just ready to have a relaxing weekend at home though I know that Thanksgiving will be just the opposite, but it will be great to see everyone!
Though I love home, I am surprised I like living here so much. I have amazing roommates who get me and make me feel like part of their family. It's great to have my own place and still have somewhere to call home. The only thing I wish I didn't have while living here are bills!! haha. But I guess that's part of being an adult, or so I'm told. Though I love love love living here this year, some days I do miss my old roomie, who got engaged last week. I've attached a few pictures from the lovely event.
So, I am part of the exec. for my sorority Gal and I love serving, but some days I feel like I am not the right person for the job. I do like it, but I feel like a selfish person when I fall behind or lash out at someone else because it's just not a good day. I am not going to let this get me down. It's stupid and not going to make a difference in the end. I just need to decide what I am going to do next semester. Still needs some thought as you see.
I am so happy right now and I pray that my life can continue in that same direction. I am loving the season and the holidays coming up. My mind is blown that it's Thanksgiving next week!! I'm stoked. It's been a pretty good week. Well, must go wash this crap out of my hair. Peace!