Sick. =(

I am still sick and about to go crazy with it!! I have not felt great in about 4 days. All I want to do is curl up in my bed, have a movie marathon, and snuggle. Yet none of this is going to happen because I have no time to. School is lame. I am tired of it and I am ready for a trip home. I just want a lazy weekend at home, but I know I am not going to get it until after Christmas.
Work is still going really well, but being sick is a pain. The people I work with are fabulous! I couldn't ask for more amazing people. They are just like a big family!! It kind of makes me miss my DQ fam. haha.
Well, I am way behind on homework and need to stop being a bum. Wish me luck on my homework. The pile is not cute.

Directions.

The direction of my life is unknown. School is fine, but I don't know what I want to do with my life. I just never stick with anything for very long because I never seem to care. I'm not sure why this is, but I have a feeling it's because I never want to apply myself and it's easier to start over than to care. I'm not sure why I think like this.
On a lighter note, I am living how I want. I would love to eventually start a family and grow up, but as of right now I am way to selfish to even think about it. Getting a dog would be too much of a commitment. Even though I don't want that type of a commitment, I would love to have a relationship and start dating again. I just never seem to find the right person or they don't think of me that way. That's fine with me, but it would just be nice to have someone think of me in a different way. Meh. I'll deal. I would love to fall in love. Just sayin.
This is boring just like my life right now. Homework is going to occur now so yeah...

Random Rants of a Crazy Girl.

"There's always gunna be another mountain. I'm always gunna want to make it move." Yes, you may find this to be a lame song, but I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Not the song, but what it really stands for. I am the type of person who likes to control her situation and make sure that I am happy with how it is turning out. The thing is, I can't control everything which actually bothers me more than you could know. I want to keep pushing and pulling and making everything the way I think it should be. Life, as we all know, is not like this at all. For instance, I told myself that I was done with Springfield after this semester, but somehow I have changed my outlook, though just a little. I'm not saying I want to live here forever, but I am going to finish school here. Most days though I can't wait to get back to the STL. I think it's my place. Maybe, maybe not but as of right now that's where I want to be. I change my mind daily as you can see, but I still hate losing control. Geez, another rant. Who would have thought?

Living My Life the Way I Love It.

So, it's Tuesday night and I am sitting in my room waiting for my hair to finish. I am dying it yet again. Part of me is tired of doing it, but I do like a change now and again. Random thought I know. So in other news, I am in love with my job. I get to shoot photos all day, hang out with amazing people, and be creative. What could be better?? It's pretty great getting to do what you love and getting paid for it. I love the family environment too even though it makes me miss my family a little bit more. I am ready to go home. It's been almost 7 weeks and I'm just ready to have a relaxing weekend at home though I know that Thanksgiving will be just the opposite, but it will be great to see everyone!
Though I love home, I am surprised I like living here so much. I have amazing roommates who get me and make me feel like part of their family. It's great to have my own place and still have somewhere to call home. The only thing I wish I didn't have while living here are bills!! haha. But I guess that's part of being an adult, or so I'm told. Though I love love love living here this year, some days I do miss my old roomie, who got engaged last week. I've attached a few pictures from the lovely event.
So, I am part of the exec. for my sorority Gal and I love serving, but some days I feel like I am not the right person for the job. I do like it, but I feel like a selfish person when I fall behind or lash out at someone else because it's just not a good day. I am not going to let this get me down. It's stupid and not going to make a difference in the end. I just need to decide what I am going to do next semester. Still needs some thought as you see.
I am so happy right now and I pray that my life can continue in that same direction. I am loving the season and the holidays coming up. My mind is blown that it's Thanksgiving next week!! I'm stoked. It's been a pretty good week. Well, must go wash this crap out of my hair. Peace!

To Go or Not to Go!

So, I'm sitting in my office hours contemplating going to class tonight. With all my heart I do not want to go to my cooking class though I know I should. How to decide? Mondays are terrible and I would rather eat a toe nail than have another day like this. It happens this way every week and I think I just need to plan my schedule better next semester. I know that I should be the responsible adult and go to class, but there is a large part of me that just wants to go read a book or watch a movie. Being an adult is super lame. Just a thought. Well, back to the real world!! =P

Pictures of You...

Photography. One thing that I feel gets me through anything. It makes you feel emotion. What ever kind that may be. I hope mine makes a difference some day. The thought of picking up my camera puts a big smile on my face. To make memories last forever for people just makes my heart smile. I hope that it becomes part of my career because I would love this feeling everyday. I'm hoping that's the way my new job is. I am working at the Picture People. =) I'm hoping this ends up well. I think I get to go home this weekend and I can't wait. I am taking my best friends' senior pictures and it's going to be awesome. She is amazing. It's so great to know someone that great and that they don't care how old you are. I love that feeling of still connecting with people even with our different ages. Here is something I took at our retreat at Galilee a couple weeks ago.

Friends of the Best Kind.

My friends are everything to me. They make me smile and laugh and make everything better. I love calling them on random Mondays just to hear that they are having a good day and that they miss me. They make me miss them so much, but I know I am where I am supposed to be. I truly miss Lindsay, Becky, Sandra, Landon, Ryan, Kevin, Becky, and so many others!! But I am loving my friends here and Gal. It's actually been a really good semester. I am liking my classes and meeting people who I never would have met otherwise. I think night classes are for me. I actually like having my days free. =) It's pretty nice. This is just me loving life.